So yesterday, God gave me the perfect little treasure to keep in my pocket. Pieces of things she feels are important enough to keep. Her treasures range from costume jewelry to small rocks. My little girl loves to collect little things and put them in small little boxes, pouches, or bags. My heart sometimes doesn’t need a sentiment, it needs something to hold onto. He is in the thick of this adoption, more than I could ever imagine.Īnd of course we can spout off sentiments like… ![]() Yes, how arrogant and foolish of me to ask God, do you see? Of course He sees. “But you do see…you have been the helper of the fatherless.” God, don’t you see!? We are ready for our little boy! Liana is walking, learning to go potty, and summer would be the PERFECT time to travel! I felt so close to Him during the first adoption, but this 2nd time around, I felt alone and He hasn’t felt close. He felt far away, and not connected to this process at ALL. “Why O Lord, do you stand far away? Why do you hide yourself in trouble?” YES! That was me. And my prayers for a file seemed unanswered. We aren’t really moving ahead (it feels). So I do find the waiting a little less painful. I’m not happy to be back at dreading the weekends, and I have to say I’m not the same waiting woman I was then. So the weekends (when nobody works) were just long and endless. No matter what stage we were in, I wanted it to go faster. I remember when we were in the first adoption process I dreaded the weekends. last week is when I was ready. I’m back to dreading the weekends again. Anytime You want to send our little boy our way, we are ready (like last week….) I’m ashamed to admit it because its a little selfish…. Ever since Christmas, I’ve had a little secret prayer. The rest, they say, is history.įor this adoption, I didn’t expect a referral in two weeks, but let’s be honest, I hoped it would be around two or at the most four weeks. I called him immediately and he rushed home so we could open our email and look over the file. Jason had just taken the kids to the park. We were told both times it would be up to six months for a wait, and were so incredibly surprised when our social worker called just two weeks into the wait. We are on week eleven of waiting for a referral for our adoption.
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